Before I Let Go by Kennedy Ryan

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Synopsis

Yasmen and Josiah Wade used to be married, deeply in love. But their marriage couldn’t survive the compounded grief that struck: the death of Josiah’s beloved Aunt Byrd, and then the stillbirth of their third child. Yasmen falls into depression; the trauma drives a wedge between them, and she eventually asks for a divorce.

Two years later, though divorced, they share a life that’s far from cleanly separated. They co-parent their two surviving children, Deja and Kassim, and they also run a restaurant together — Grits, a soul food / fusion spot built partly on Aunt Byrd’s legacy.

Though the divorce remains official, Josiah still carries regret and love for Yasmen. Yasmen, meanwhile, is trying to rebuild not just her life, but her sense of self, and to heal emotionally from the losses and the depression.

When their son Kassim’s teacher suggests he see a therapist (because of emotional or behavioral difficulties likely tied to their family situation), Josiah agrees — and he even begins therapy himself to support the child and as part of his own healing.

Over time, being in close proximity — managing the business together, sharing parenting, unresolved feelings — the spark between Yasmen and Josiah begins to re-ignite. They agree to have one steamy night to test what’s left, to release tension, but that one night becomes more. As emotions deepen, so do the complications: old wounds open, grief and regret resurface, and both must reckon with what they want and whether they can trust each other (and themselves) enough to try again.

Ultimately, the story is about second chances — in love, in life — and whether two people who were once broken together but who have also been reshaped by pain can find a path back to each other that’s stronger, more honest.

Themes & Notes

  • Grief & Loss: The emotional weight of losing a child, losing a family elder (Aunt Byrd), how that trauma affects mental health.

  • Mental Health & Healing: Depression, therapy (both individual and for the children), introspection, growth. Yasmen’s journey of recovering from depression is central.

  • Co-parenting & Practical Proximity: Because they divorced but still are bound through kids and business, there’s no clean break — which makes the emotional tension more grounded.

  • Second-Chance Romance: The idea of whether love from the past can be reclaimed, or reinvented, given time, change, and vulnerability. It’s not a fairy-tale re-do; there are real obstacles.

  • Self-worth, Forgiveness, Vulnerability: Both Yasmen and Josiah have to contend with guilt, their own expectations, regrets, and the fear of failing again. The need to forgive each other and themselves.

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